12th July 2007 - Bordem.

Today has been very uneventful. I basically stayed at home all day wrote some content for one of my websites....www.mcaproaudio.co.uk... and then just watched television all day, got very boring towards the end.

Not much to say about today really. Was bored, thinking about her again but just generally tired and don't know what to do with myself. argh!

Supplementary - This is somthing that I remembered about the today tomorrow...or should I say that on the 13th I remebered a converstation that I had with a friend which I wanted to include in this and reflect on. A friend of mine, who I have known for about six years now but havn't spoken to in person or at depth for about three years, was talking to me on MSN today. I'm not going to name names as that would be very unfair but basically she is a girl who has alot of very very short relationships and is by her nature a very sexual girl, bordering on being a nymphomaniac. Today we were talking about our respective love lives and she said that she was basically sick of being treated as a "sex toy" and that she just wanted to have a proper relationship for once. She also said she wants to meet up with a lad an not end up in bed with him. Now I can't realy identify with this, it is practically the opposite of my love/sex life, but I did feel sorry for her. She is a really nice person but because guys just want to screw and she want to she will, but then guys get the wrong idea.

I would love for her to meet a guy that wasn't just interested in her horny nature but also wanted to spend time with her out of bed, in other words be her boyfriend. I only wish that I liked her like that then I could do that and plus....erm..nevermind ;-).

Anyway, in answer to her wish to meet up with a guy and not end up in bed with him, I said that we should meet up with a drink. As much as I think she is nice etc. the chances of us ending up in bed are small. I don't try to get girls in bed like that and we are old friends, those feelings arn't there for me. Anyway, apparently it won't happen because I'm nice while the guys that she ends up sleeping with are always dickheads. To be honest I think it says somthing about someones nature that will seduce a girl into having sex with him for no reason other than because he can or just wants sex. I don't know, there is some message either here or in my head that I can't get down but either way I wanted to add this.